I didn't find any really relevant pictures to put up with this post.
So, just laugh at these.
and:
It's been a week since I was writing here last.
Everything has changed.
I should be sleeping right now. Tomorrow, I wake early for church, and then I don't come home for a week. Summer camps are so marking. Not always "I found Jesus!" so much as "who I was last time I did this is so different from who I am now." Hopefully, both.
I wish I was more awake, more bloggish, more capable of writeable thoughts.
Truly, I am mostly here to tell you all (whoever you are) that I wish I had written here at least once this past week,
and that I am going away for six days.
Hopefully, the result of those six days will be an outpouring of thoughts, words, and complete sentences.
And okay, not everything.
So much has changed.
Things That Are On My Mind: (If I capitalize all the first letters of the words, it looks more official. It gives the appearance that I have actually planned on writing this list, and that I have it all worked out.)
1. Love. Many waters cannot quench it. It is as strong as death. God is love. I am forming beliefs, convictions, dreams of my own. Love begins to re-define itself, or perhaps, for the first time, to take on a color and a shape all its own. And yet, it has been there all along. Love never fails, but it does grow.
2. Questions. Resurfacing. I guess I never truly realized that I had let them sink to the bottom of my heart. Maybe it is their turn to breathe.
3. Trust. The width, depth, and breadth of it. The many shapes, tastes, and colors of it. How it is entangled with love, hope, faithfulness, and joy. How it is entangled with me.
4. Joy. Remaining in it. Abiding. Allowing Jesus to protect me from the enemy who steals by listening to my Savior's voice. This is hard. It is so easy to get pulled under. It is so easy to drown.
5. Happiness. And fear. And not being afraid of happiness. And not being afraid at all. I am rescued. I am protected. I am guarded, delighted in, hoped for, dreamed of, and rejoiced over. I am happy.
And, I am sleepy.
See how you are loved!
I sit at the lousy, immobile, desktop computer
just to talk about myself,
and demand comments of you,
and be offended should you refuse.
Well, at least I am honest.
Goodnight, goodnight.
See you soon.
3 comments:
Annie you have alot of time on your hands to right all of this stuff...i feel like im reading a book about you when i read this..but i love you and i miss you and i hope you are doing well :)
-Scott(your cousin)
Oh, Annie…
I must confess my great level of reluctance which has kept me these many days from acting upon your kind invitation to visit this page. In my defence, it all seemed quite logical to me at the time. You see, I rather feared that, however highly I think of you now(and I really do think better of you than you could possible know..)
But the combined forces of inexplicable boredom and a fierce desire to keep myself from eating more dessert have driven me at last to peruse your eloquent thoughts with a wary eye. Having breached my better judgment, I must indeed say you are no less than a beautiful girl with beautiful thoughts… we do often say “may the lord bless you and keep you and make his face to shine upon you..” but in this case I believe rather than someone has said “make his face to shine from within you… and it has been heard by him who hears all. I would consider myself the basest of villains if ever I said otherwise.
(from Ashley, by the way…)
I should be sleeping right now. I should have been sleeping hours ago. Sleep is a very strange thing. It is the easiest thing in the world to procrastinate and I therefore do very little of it. Oh well. Reading your blog is highly preferable to sleeping anyway.
Love,
Michelle
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